the past few months that i have been living "fakely" turned out to be something genuine.. many unexpected things were done and new friends met.. i say, my life has been less boring than the usual and the thoughts of suicide have successfully left my inane mind.. yes, suicide.. not because my life is so full of problems but rather my life is so0oo00o uneventful that i'd rather die than continue living.. some things are better left undone.. not! things are supposed to be acted upon.. not left alone expecting it to be obliterated suddenly by some force that cannot be easily comprehended.. i know i'm ranting.. just let me. i just have this rare urge to write about anything that comes to my disorganized mind. now that i have mentioned it, my cor is still not organized.. i still have this pe to drop and another pe to add.. you know, just to transfer sections you still have to go through that complicated process.. why is life so centered on having to undergo through a systematic process? what i'm trying to say is that going through these processes does not make things better.. they just complicate them more. just another thought came to my mind.. i wanna be rich.. it pains me so much thinking about the things that i cannot do without money.. don't get me wrong on this.. its just that i want to live better than my present life.. oh well, i think i'm being too materialistic on this thougt.. hehe. chem 16.2 sucks.. uhm.. what i mean is.. i hate my chem 16.2 class.. aside from staying inside the lab for 3 lo0o0ong hours, i do not know a single person in my class (well, except for my teacher though).. i'm a freshman taking up general biology.. and i'm being mixed up with sophomores taking up physics.. c'mon!! why does it have to be them? their mental capacity is way to0o0o high for me to take.. physics student are intelligent, no doubt.. and i'm freaking out because i feel so out of place and dumb.. i'm curious.. why did those people take up physics and not biology? haha!!! maybe they're not like me.. i suck at physics.. maybe they don't.. or maybe, just maybe.. those people are just looking for something very challenging.. so shallenging that, maybe at some point, will require them to bang their heads on the wall until their cerebrospinal fluids come oozing out of their ears!! what a morbid me.. haha!!! anyway.. i still got some few things to focus on.. like texting and making some sense with my life.. hehe.. so ciao for now everybody!!