i cannot really tell myself why people become lonely every now and then.. no matter how hard we try to stay as happy as possible, we still become sad. we laugh hard.. i mean majority of us do. bad thing is that we people tend to easily get over happiness than loneliness.. the main thing is.. we let loneliness stay longer than happiness.. oh c'mon.. now i'm blabbing about something i can't really defend if questioned by people who would somehow read this entry..

i, too, get sad.. who doesn't? its normal and expected of us humans to cry sometimes.. even those who seems to be very "positive-perspectived" also cry. i don't know.. maybe the human heart is specially designed to balance everything.. blood to and from the heart; happiness and loneliness..

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i have finally decided to become a cardiosurgeon someday.. i don't know.. i just have this intense(wow) interest on the human heart.. i want to learn everything about it.. with a little hope of somehow finding the answer to the ever famous question of the heart's involvement to people falling in love.. does it or does it not play a large role in developing love?

*i'm twisted 'coz one side of me is telling me that i need to move on; on the other side i wanna break down and cry..*

i pains me so much to discover that people find it very difficult to move on after a freakinly useless love affair.. what i mean is.. what the hell is there to stay? would it really make things better if you keep holding on even if you yourself know that you can't hold on any longer? pain brought about by love makes almost everybody go insane! makes them suffer.. suffer to the point of breaking down and finally deciding to die instantly without even thinking that there are a lot of better opportunities outside waiting.. i know this sucks.. i just can't figure out what things to blab about..