
the only place where everything seems to go right...
here in this haven where i find solemnity and peace..
here in this world that i created, i dominate..
nothing you say would affect me..
i am me.
bondie,
first of all, you are not supposed to let anybody read this. next is that, after reading this, i hope you won't hate me or anything related to that.
june.
i was pushed into the world of "school service". that is when i knew you. the first time i came across you, you were nothing but someone who doesn't have anything that i would like or whatsoever. next encounter was the same; only now i noticed something that i was not able to see last time. your teeth. one thing weird about it is that your not-so-large-but-still-large teeth seem to take my attention. that is when i knew that i would eventually fall for you. strangers became casual friends.
july.
this time, i was struggling hard focusing on whatever i was doing whenever you are around. we talk.. sometimes. and everytime that happens, i would have a hard time focusing on what to say next, thanks to your uber distracting teeth. i have now accepted the fact that i was in love with your teeth and it seems that i was slowly falling in love with your nose. yep, you read it right, your nose. that thing you got that has two little holes seem to have pulled the attention i gave to your teeth. funny, isn't it? i am in love with your body parts. we became better friends.
august.
thanks to your ever wonderful presence; this time, i was already having a hard time sleeping. i can't even survive a night without texting you (with hopes of receiving replies from you, of course). this month made it very hard for me to stop thinking of you. every morning when i wake up, the first thing that i think of are the night practices that we have. i always look forward to those practices in which i will see you. you may think that i am just having the usual infatuation stage on you. on the contrary, i think i'm slowly falling into obsession over you (now i'm overstating). i was still in love with your body parts (sounds awkward, doesn't it?) but this time, i was also in love with the whole you. now, i started to become very interested in everything about you. i asked a lot of questions and you answered them honestly (well i think not in all questions, but i think you were honest in most of them). still, i love you for everything you have. i tried to look for negatives, i failed.
september.
i was deeply in love with you. i left someone for you (even though i knew that you can't love me back).
october.
i told you i love you.
november.
i still am loving you.
~happy birthday!! you reached the turning point from puberty to adulthood. you are old now!! haha.. try lang nako hadlukon ka na tigulang naka. thank you for the friendship that you gave me. it has been a very wonderful one and i hope it won't be lost. grabe ka struggle. mao na ako always gina-ingon dba? hehe.. napura ko og english oi.. kay birthday man nimo, expected jud na naa jud wish para sa imo. my wish(es) for you are: (1)for you have all the wonderful things you desire (2) good health (3) happy life (4) safety (5) wonderful lovelife!! hehe.. apil jud baya dapat nang lovelife.. kay love makes the world go 'round man daw.. hehe. anyway, i hope you have a great time celebrating your 20th birthday!!
i <3 you..Ü
don